From the very start of my college, I faced issues. Whenever I thought that life was going straight, it took turns. When I started my first wrong business of fooling people for referral money, I made 2000 on the first day. After making 30k in roughly 15 days, all companies started to reduce their price. I tried doing an Etsy business, and when I started to get sales on sliders, at that time, if you were anywhere in the world, you would have seen my slider. Then I got a copyright strike from Crunchyroll. I received 3 orders, and it got shut down. I started selling planners. I got my first sales but had serious issues with studies and wasn’t able to continue. After all that, I started a job as a designer for a company in Abu Dhabi. After doing it for 2 months, the Indian government doesn’t allow payment through wire transfer from arab countries. If the sender is not a relative. I tried, but the boss was not able to send payment through anything else and fews days ago, I started 75 hard and stopped it becasue I wasn’t able to contnute because I can’t afford 2 workouts everyday because of my back and then I started again making content so i can give value but my phone started to heat up and I wasn’t able to and many more I can’t list. How many times I failed in programming, In my last job, everything was going fine, and my relationship and life were good. Suddenly, something happened, and I got terminated with 14 others because I was friends with 2 managers. I started a silent challenge and was doing fine, and planned to complete two more major features of my USP category, then use July for initial customer acquisition and then I got conjunctivitis 4 days ago, and today in the morning it got worse because I used some drops. I got spots on my cornea, which I have to cure, otherwise it will turn into something major. Right now at the moment, my visibility is 3 out of 10, and I have to wait at least for the next 2 weeks. So writing this is dependent on my touch typing and then AI grammar and mistake correction. Worst of all, I had only my ex to rely on because I was the one who broke up with her. I was too sad about the fact that I couldn’t provide her with anything, but she was completely okay with that. I never showed resentment, but she always showed it, and she always knew why it all happened, so we were talking very little. I told her that I’m trying to come back so we can be together, but I showed some resentment 3 days ago, and she answered in a way I never expected. I blocked her, and that’s the foolish part of me, so now I have absolutely no one to even talk to because I don’t like making friends, and the only friend I have, we only talk about masti.
But all this only says I tried. The truth is, and the sad reality, I’m forgetting his name, he says: “Unfortunately, there will be no sign that you tried unless you make it.”
So, after 2 weeks, I’ll start again, or I’ll code with blurry eyes because I don’t care if I’m earning or not. The thing that makes me depressed is not working and not learning. Another point is that a few people who were there are now nobody is there. They said, “You don’t think that conventional people work hard, or you look down on them” It’s not like that. Everybody paid their price. But if you are going to come and sit on my shoulder and say you are better than me because in society norms you are earning good, then you can suck my balls and stand in a line of people I look down on because you are no match for me and what I do. That’s my ego, and it’s the only thing that keeps me pushing after 6 years of just failures, and I’m still working. I don’t care if you are a topper, IITian, IIM person or just an overachiever. I’ll crush you, and I’ll crush you.
I have no limits, so I’ll come again and do it, and I’ll keep doing things that I think can help someone.